kimea. where have the butterflies gone?

i dont know if its just stupid, dumb or if its me or whatever it may be..
i feel like im in some mini war zone with the entire species of plecos and tropical fish in victory for ken!

yea yea, laugh ur head off all u want.
i wont be able to hear it anyway!
but i do feel, like at times, he treats fish better than me! )):
YES, IM JEALOUS. no denial to that 100%.

know why?
ive always told ken that id rather not spend or buy stuff for and on myself to save money to take the both of us out for like a day. its been rather hard to do so cause e hardly saves and itll take me awhile to save up enough. but today, suddenly, he bought his $35 mango pleco; sounds nice? acutally a pleco, is just another name for a suckerfish =.= i actually felt hurt when he told me after he bought the fish that hes been saving to get the pleco and one for me too, and hes actually been saving for the tank build-up. but than, why is it when its cause of the tank that its such a spree saving and that he IS able to save alot in such a short time? ): it may mean nothing to him but maybe he doesnt see me really trying to scrimp and save at times to get stuff and to really want us to go out! weve never done that before, other than on our 1 year anni that we went to sakae sushi for a buffet, with that, even i initiated that months beforehand to let him know.

i hate fish now, especially PLECOS AND OSCARS! dumb tropicals.